Beep Beep

What is wrong with this world?
With all its beeps and sounds
I try to stop them but I
Couldn't stand my grounds

For, I, knew, I had to wake up
I must swallow all this annoyance
I take responsibility for others too
I need to hear them, make me enter a trance!

Soon, lights will come around
With all its blinding effect
And, the looking for the lost will start
And, once again, frustration will erect

The morning seems so hateful
I just could not understand
How my life started to be early
When i hate it, it's so bland

Morning comes, as it usually does
And one would think of me being brighter
But I can live it now, for I knew
That there will be fun, next, and after

I'm not used to waking up that early.. it's break, you know? I should be sleeping in. Tennis, though, has practice. I don't mind, tennis is fun after all, but there are temptations on sleeping in. Temptations to just sleep away this break. Temptations lie there until I get hungry. This time around, I'm using an alarm clock to wake myself up. I'm not used to it at all. My mom usually wakes me up.

Tardy appearance

Today I woke with green eyes
That I should check the chat
But, to my surprise,
It was already 4 o'clock

Again, this wretched evilness
Has gripped my sea of dreams
Never really waking me up
My sleep, falling apart in the seams

So, what I missed,
A cheerful conversation?
Or maybe some of their
Dark secrets' Confession

If only I woke up in 30 minute's time
Then, I wouldn't have such mystery
I really should've waken up,
And end these thoughts that varied

Instead I woke up in the mornings
With scents of Earls of Grey
And missed last night's tasy dinner,
Unagi, my favorite prey

Again, my fatigue has gotten the better of me. I know, now, that it never fails to disappoint me. How many times have I over-napped? A very endless count. I really wished that time would stop, until I've woken up. Just disappointed, is all. I'm disappointed yet again; I really need to change my sleeping schedule.

Dead and Gone

Promises are engagements or vows
That is granted without fear
For there is an assurance
And the worries disappear

I think a promise is an oath
To that other someone
You'll be subject to scorn if you
break it, and that y0u're over and done

They are not meant to
be broken so easily
They are an ironclad rule
Much more powerful than idle remembrances
and even more than the usual assurance
Those who break it are just too cruel

So what am I now??
A liar, a good-for-nothing??
Maybe a bastard or a weakling
Or even a bum,, or just maybe nothing

Nothing in your eyes,
Because I've broken a promise
So, I'll take in all your attacks
For what I have done is
Worthy of a crime, so I will
Not blame you if you all turn your backs

Man, I hate this all
And I still cant believe
That I did this hideous
Crime on Christmas Eve

What should I do??
Now that it's Christmas, the real thing
I will accept all misfortunes
That Christmas brings


This is no comedy,, it is one sick joke. But, I feel obligated to write this into my blog. I broke a promise, I really did. And now, I feel bad and ugly,, all of it inside. There it is again, feeling worse and worse now, I mean a promise of all things. To Nicko, Cherika, Maria, Aida, Kristine, and Lorenz,, I apologize. But, please, for me, do not acknowledge my apology. For all of this would sound so meaningless if it could be repaired by words. Words so simple,, that everyone uses commonly. That is not enough. You guys are probably mad, though lower from my expectations, so just tell me what to do please. It'll only cease, this pain, if you guys can give me a punishment, a punishment worth the magnitude of this deed, this deed that was wrong. So, guide me now, into the caves of despair, and throw me into the ditches of solemn hatred. Without a light, I'll follow a ridiculous lead, a sound of a rock, or maybe the water, and may I be lost forever.....

My style

0+1=1 and 1+3=4
Haven't really ever thought much about it before
Add a 5=9, add a 7=16
Are all my thought just so, too genuine

Add 9=25, and add 11=36
Is my thinking too complex or maybe just weird
My friends this school year pronounces that they are hard to decipher
And my feelings, feelings are locked up

Add 13=49, and add 15=64
Well, it all comes to me naturally, thinking hard on other things
But I am glad,, that I could still see smiling faces
No matter how ludicrous or ridiculous my thoughts

add 17=81 and add 19=100
Maybe it's just my process of thinking
Always looking for shortcuts and patterns
But, Don't worry too much(audience) because i wont think about it

******If you havent noticed,, the odd numbers added together comes up to the squares of each number,, 1,4,9,16,25,36,49,64,81,100,, their square roots are 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10

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Disregarding the poem, there have been many things going on before this Christmas eve. By things, I mean homework, play, and sports. Time is hard to deal with now,, especially since I have not honed my skill in time management. In other words, Stress, stress, stress, and bad use of time. I hope I jump back up again,, so my standings won't decrease because of a sport. In the midst of this all,, I can find something, that orange* haha. Moving on, I probably will do bad. My time management is so bad thoh that I probably wont start honing my skills in time management. Everyone knows, I procrastinate the most and the best, I wonder how everything will turn up.........

Oranges

This one big orange
came flying from the sky
It never really appeared
during my lifetime

Where have you been??
I asked ever so gently
It smacked me in the back
"Hey were you happy??"

It then told me,
it had been rolling around
Throughout its life,
I was nowhere to be found

But, now it sees my
My rented closed doors
So I had to say sorry, because
I couldn't take it like before

So, orange, orange, orange!
I'm sorry about this
Would you feel better,
if I gave you one just kiss??

It declined the offer,
and looked for a slope
It rolled up and down,
without signs of hope

I whispered to myself,
"Hey orange, don't feel bad"
"If only I could,
I would take you back"

But, now i see,
Only its trail
It was gone, so fast
Like the winds and gales

Never again, did I see that orange
A thought of it still gives me a frown
However, I never really found it strange,
how life always had its up and downs

Hey, Orange. Don't feel bad. I hope you don't end up with harmful feelings. I do not hate your existence, no far from it. You were new and different and.......... something important.

Well, the week has been fast and eerie. I know I had a lot of stuffs ahead of me, some big and some small. Some important and some not equal to its magnitude. But, I have to say, I might not be ready yet at all. Hahahaha,, gloomy much?? But anyways, this year, I have a few things to juggle. I don't really get involved in so many things in such short times so I am not used to it, this change, and new responsibilities. I know I signed up for it, but I'm not too full-heartedly on it either. I wonder what will come out of me, feelings, achievements, and goals. Would this become a cornerstone for my life,, this life that was laid back and usually just breezed through many things?? Or should I shatter these forming cornerstones before I get my hands too full?? Whatever my fate, I hope I survive.

A debacle end

This morning, I woke up expecting a good day, one with clear skies and cheerful settings. To starts things off, I woke up early. Considering that I slept right after eating again at home, I wanted to use the computer. The food last night was awesome, though. In addition to last night's pizza, I ate subway and sushi(Lion King's Roll). It had awesome cheese which I liked very much. Anyways, I was using the computer in the morning, and my brother woke up. He told me to shut it down and since it was his laptop, I had to listen. I shut it down and go back to sleep. When I woke up, I ate kutchinta which my parents brought and they were bitter. Why oh Why!!! I was also asked to help my dad to help with the tires and car stuff and it took me up until 11:48. Also, I lost $15 when I tied it to my shorts strings(ones you would find in sports shorts). Oh my god,, seriously. I had a small headache and hadn't started on homework. Drinking pepsi made me bloated and I didn't feel like eating for a long while. I lost my dad on American Grocery and spent at least 15 minutes to find him. There hasn't been any blogs from the others at all. I cooked the wrong food for cafe world. I dont how to do this VOB, BUP, IFO files from a DvD which I'm trying to put in the computer. There are no games yet for the Ps3 that my brother got. It's hot today. Darn dogs pooped on many places on the yard which is very annoying and they are not even ours. ahhhhhhh,, what is wrong with today!! hahaha......................... Last but not least, there is school tomorrow. I'm screwed!!!!