My youth

Oh, the irony that struck my mind
One, such as myself,
Who prides himself in importance of friendship
Has lost his faith in it
While I'm just an occasional breeze
To come do my purpose, to bring a smile
Upon everyone's faces
I am still just a person, who've dug too deep

Oh, how I am just a breeze
Only noticed when I'm around
Otherwise I'm not known
By presence, thought, or sound
And thus, I come closer to change
To change myself now
For trust, i've given too many
And, I'm afraid, I won't get back
I will just have to forget
Because I'm still just a breeze
Who lost purpose in life

Stuck

The words echoed in my head
As if monstrosity entered in your stead
Stricken, over the top
And before the final destination, it stops

Bygone, your endless thoughts
Resistance is futile, as your body fought
Save the worthless encounters
And swings that won't suffice a counter

So quick you've turned away
You knew how to keep me at bay
Then you went ahead and planted a seed
One to define me, as infamous as Antigone's deed

Once again, the bells tolled
As moons dive down delineating the cold
Stars recounted, and read
Life rotting and skins shed

Though empty in words, and you're steps farther away
Your interrogative, in my mind, hardened like clay
Though not so often, IT still bore its ring
"What the Hell were you thinking?!?!?!?!"

"My friend"

[Rap]
You remember just starting out
We just kids, don't know what we talk about
Got lifestyle so indefinite
All we really wanted was to fit, in
Committed so many sins
Even to our kins

But now, we've gone through that
Got closer and fat,
And we really know how to act
Covered all we lacked
Stayed true to our pact
And our mission so
Look at us now
This ain't fiction

[slower]
Chorus
Keeping yourself out in the distance
I couldn't say a thing at all
Seeking for sense and reason
The wall has just gone so tall
Even though i have no right to say this
Did this have to happen at all?
All, At all..
At all, all, at all..


[Rap]
But damn, look what you've done
You betrayed me, this just ain't so fun
Thought we got this understanding
And minding and caring, and the sharing and telling and the
Hurt that wasn't so blaring

You've left me, guy
You're style appeared so sty
That ain't the one i know
So just go, just go

[slower]
Chorus
Keeping yourself out in the distance
I couldn't say a thing at all
Seeking for sense and reason
The wall has just gone so tall
Even though i have no right to say this
Did this have to happen at all?
All, At all..
At all, all, at all..

The Rock of Wonder

Never did it shine
As much as it did
Maybe it's destroyed
..God forbid

It appeared a,
Long time ago
It was neither
Mine or of a foe's
On the smooth streets
It had lied
So, I've
taken it inside

This rock was
Ivory like a bone
Almost as refined
As a stone
When it was needed,
I cleaned
And took care of bumps
I did

Setting it down,
I dazed
Once again,
I was so amazed
It still looked
So beautiful
After all the things
it went through

Stepping back, though,
ruined the view
There's evidence
It was far from new
Lil crevices
Glowed in the dark
Then, ruined thoughts
began to embark
Looking again,
At its whole entity
The problems of it
I pitied
Its dust, color,
And erosion
Had made it seem dead
From poison
Even if approached
By someone brave
The connection
Can't be saved

Then, I noticed
How far I am
Couldn't keep
The "Ingram" (in me)
One small step,
Seemed colossal
Like the length
Of the chain corals
It really,
Did not make sense
Why I was kept
Intense

Now knowing of the
Substance
I've developed
An essence
Of the feelings
I hold dear
For the
Rock of wonder

Let me stay
Very sincere
Maybe, even,
coming near
To say I've
Liked you before
Before reasons
Have been torn
Notice now,
The distance
(I should,)
So, I could
Steer to the fence (of)
What has had an
Effect on me
For what I've
Become to be

Untitled

There is no hope, there is no light
Time has finally taken its flight,
Left me out in the cold, cold night,
Disappeared completely out of my sight.
But, as premonitions come to pass, it gives me fright.
When time froze and things alter, will i be alright?
These occasions, faint but significant, colored my eyes white...

However, I'm tired, and busy, I definitely need to get back
To that track I traversed, with wishes I stay intact,
(During this whole experience) May the contract,
Given by none other than I, not lacked-
In determination and skill. Even though, I have had a knack
Of getting through, really of resting with more slack.
It is TIME to be strong, unwavering, just like the color black.

What was little forgotten

Take my fleeted feelings
And steal my broken heart
If I am to stop dazing
It would definitely be a start

I give you this poem
There's not much doubt
That you'll simply, in one gaze,
Figure it out

My mind's been occupied by senses
Which usually disappear
When the time comes to driving or
jobs, when I needed the cheer

But, It really is strange,
That i've started to gaze
These days, not stars,
It drives me to craze

I keep my mind closed,
So i get no interference
But, as an observer....
I notice, as opposed to evanescence

Guess I'm still longing
Though determined to break free
Hope it'll turn to branch
Of just another tree

I hope the poem speaks for itself

Before time runs out.....

What is this feeling?
That I feel forever bound
Was this my whole life?
It's not right, the ugly, gore sound

Why do I even need to?
I've lived without this
But now, it's slowly coming out?
NO! Dont please!.....................

As i walk by the halls of a crowded mall or open sea or the whereabouts of a restaurant, my mind thinks differently now. Of course, in any event, people would look, look at others who congregate the same general area. For me, I only had one objective. That is, to look for people I know. People whom I knew then and can talk and have fun with if needed company. The way I can come up to them and they would remember me. The way I can feel a little less lonely seeing more and more and more of them. I feel accomplished just having been able to say hi to them or hugging them.


Yup, I always look for others. Sometimes, I even factor the way they walk, their posture, the clothes they wear, face(mostly), and the friends they hang around with. To go to such detail? is that dedication? hahaha,, A smirk for a friend passing by. Though, many times, they dont see me and no interaction occurs...


But But But,, something now is different. Always looking for someone else now. My goal is maimed and aimed at something else. I've grown accustomed to c hecking people out. Why do i need to do this? I never had to really do this before. Am i looking for companions? But I already have great friends. Many who would get in trouble for me for a special event. So what?! Am i longing for love again? being surrounded by some people who is having a greater time than I, becuz they have a special someone..... its envious. I guess i've been jealous since since before. But, doing this will only hurt people. I want to go back the way it was before.

another thought?

What you've said to me was really sweet
No other words yet had meant so deep
And is yet to be beat
By what comes from you, it will sweep
Away all the bad feelings that used to inhabit this feeble heart o' mine

And What you've said, enlightened me
It kept me assured, relaxed and full of regret
You're words, powerful enough to increase my feelings for you a whole,new degree
And so, to you, i owe you a great debt,
Once again, (you don't know, but) you've made everything fine

So, I thank you once again. Most of it was my fault, I made it unnecessarily big. Ahhh,, having it in the open just refreshed me, too. And, it all made me like you even more.

school

This is what a school is.

Big, long blackboards
Light, sturdy desks
You keep it neat,
But soon turns to mess

There are bright, colorful posters
That hangs all around
Ignored by most students, because
It never looks profound

Scattered, old books and
Cabins that are full of them
It's never used for good
Unless instructed

So many things linger the halls,
So there are so many distractions
But what can be less thrilling?
It is the numerous instructions

Write over here, and write over there
Copy this, that, and that over there
It would be of no use if you stop and stare
So, keep your pencils moving, unless you dare

Dare not to listen,
To what your teacher has to say
So, you keep on playing with pencils and paper
Or whatever comes your way

Paper hearts and paper balls
Paper planes and paper shreds
You stop a little,
Listening at what the teacher had said

Ahhh, you know it well,
From previous experiences
That you will get
One of those "touche" speeches

You nod in agreement
And soon shake it off
Until you've been inpired
By someone you've admired

Then, real learning emerges

Fit black pens, along with
Matching whiteouts
Long, Dark lead
In mechanical pencils
But, let's not forget the
Scientific calculators
Accurate protractors
And Fancy stencils

This long road ahead,
Filled with mental road blocks
It challenges the brain,
Getting you out of that box

We'll know very soon,
That you have grown accomplished
And that you've used all that you've learned in school,
Then, live in prestige.

This is the poem for submission for palacios,, tell me how it sounds

The Filthy Forest

Came by a frog,
I've said hello,
He was a friend of mine
From before

His name was Coco
He was cool and fat
Used to hang with him
Quite a Lot

We got to the talking
After, had not much to do
We felt hungry,
So we started to look for food

He took me into
A forest with a shining light
Trees everywhere, rays through leaves
It was such a sight

Until we came to the
Wretched Swamp

After getting there, an obstacle
We were stumped

Hunger and fatigue
Shook us and
In the same time,
Laziness strikes

With great luck,
We see a man
Bought from him a carcass
The freshest he can

With that we lured some insects
Those that flew blindly
But some were too smart
They were flying to flee

But still, we caught so much
We filled our stomachs to its depths
We thought our feast was over
But a fly flew in, changed our mind instead

We argued of who wanted
This fly that was stupid
I tried to catch it
But it was too elusive

Crazy little fly
A great coffin you've dug
But it's okay,
It was just a bug


Ahhhhh symbolism

Happiness

There!! You happy??
I went ahead and did it
You really got in my nerves
You think that's more important??
Thinking of lame reasons??
Look at what you're judging first
You ignorant person,,, seriously
Always making stuff up as if
I can't think, but guess what?
I can! So stop Bsing already

Ahhhhhhhhh
I hope it gets worse
I hope i get worse
Because my pride keeps me from
Getting help
And when I get worse,
I'd prob have something to say
You see, what you've done?
And you will deserve it and
I wont care for my health
Just go ahead health,
Plummet down and never escalate
And you'll be to blame
UGHHH!!

Over my head

A time with worth
A time for tennis
A time for wonder
A time for academics
A time for laughs
A time to tease
A time to joke
A time to please
So much time for anything
Not worth the time, about it, to ponder
And who really finds the time
To look at time and put it all together?
And what brings me to time?
A deep covert relationship?
Maybe it's since my loss that
Brought me to this ship
,,of time and all others that corresponds with it,,

A time to eat
A time to sleep
A time to breathe
A time to think
A time to fail
A time to lead
A time to manage
A time to succeed
It all happens without our consent
And is not affected by our wish
It passes and goes, no deviation
And you can't control, Can't put a leash
So, what's in my head?
What am I really saying?
What is this song,,
In my head, that's playing?
The song is "forever"
And it won't slow down
I guess I'll put up with it all
For the TIME being, an unending bout

Ahhhh, well, It's too hard to understand
Just understanding my understanding, still too much
All these thoughts, and all these voices are raw in my mind
I need refurbishments if I want these thoughts to touch,,
A heart, an inspiration, a mellow touch to their minds
And help those of new incarnations, cute, little newly bred
With books and teachings, and preaches and announcements
So that these thoughts are delivered to adolescents by them in my stead

Oh well, there is too much to do,
I bet only few will listen, for they are mine
My thoughts, which no one really has to mind

Time, again, I have wrote about it. I guess I might be a little too consumed by its ideas. I guess that is no surprise since I have been busy quite a while. And now, a sprained ankle, by my own recklessness. I don't like it, well who does? Having to be hit by karma at such a busy time. *I shouldn't have teased jeff about his cast hahaha* Well,, I hope it gets better, and get me back on track. I hope at least before the season ends. I need to get better, I really do. I want to go full force on this, moreso than I have done before. I really am reckless though. One thing I couldn't abolish. Well, I guess that's one thing that will stay with me, got a while. It just makes me think how bad I'll be in the future. Future,,,,,,, that's related to time *sigh* ...

As I think about what to write
Nothing, zenzen, popped into my mind
Until I noticed how I don't put the effort on many things
Because I'm held back by time
I typed quite fast, Ideas rushed into my head
*T*I*M*E* I got faster at writing it
As I typed this undrafted poem
I felt it, A bit of rush

And that's how it all happened,,
I was Finished in due TIME
But I used up quite a lot of TIME
Guess, I'm way in over my head
TIME to sleep again in school
Always unconscious, Like the corpse of the dead

Crash!!!

******I'm going to try a poem with no rhyme

1 hour and 30 minutes
That was not that long, ryt?
But Something came over me
A Cold Wind, Strikes
An Overflowing Chill,
It Creeps over me

Increasing Fatigue,
Growing Weakness,
Overhead Pain,
Lightheaded feelings,
There was just no end to
These Feeble feelings

I was soaring and tumbling
As my journey leads the way
My destination?? Unknown
My Strength slowly draining out of my body
I just sat there,, alone
Staring into a screen
Back Straight, and home clothes
my shirt? From a 5k run
my shorts? they're for sports
They were not enough protection
I continue my wait,, endless anticipation
Playing with my thumbs as I go
The Wait was long, and the ride,,
The ride felt longer,,
As my head bounced against the window,,
I lie there unconsciously,,
A dummy made of flesh
Shaking and Moving,,
Like an Empty Box
There were no jingles,,
There were none,,
For nothing was inside this being
A waste of Space

As I got home,, there!!
The bed was spotted
I slapped the fan silly
And turn its knobs
Its engines roared
A memento of a car
And then a Crash
Ambulances come and people yelling
Police Cars driving around
Should I call for help??
They're already here
I'll yell for help
I'll do it!! I'll find a way!!
I was hurt, injured, can't move my leg
I held it, It hurts
At least in my dreams ^.^

There we go people,, How is it?? This was about the time I waited in the Mall. The mall,, as cozy as it was for some people,, was not so enjoyable after practice. If you've read the poem correctly, I felt sick. I couldn't really think much. I hope you enjoyed it 0.<..... I'll wait for comments


Waiting is something I have learned how to do. I can wait very long, because at times, my dad would arrive very late. He was usually late, also. Since there was time, I was able to find ways to entertain myself. Humming, Looking up at the sky, Kicking or Punching, Looking for weird things,, etc. You can do sooo many things while waiting. But, I don't like it all. The idea of waiting. I know how it feels to wait with uncertainty, to wait with temper and regret. Patience can only take me so far, so I hope I do not wait anymore!

Bits to paper

Letters, letters
They are everywhere
Up, down, left,
Right, here, and there

One, by itself
Is significant
More than one,
Is harder to understand

When they come together,
Standing side by side
A word is formed,
By its sight and sound

When those come together
It becomes harder to understand
It makes a sentence,
A combination with a bond

They are important,
Letters really are
Though they are all just
Dots, curves, and bars

Something so simple
Can be so great
Good Luck to humanity
At this rate

For, they have advanced
This far already
They will get very far
Even if they go steady....

Letters, Letters
They are everywhere
But, without you
Life on earth would be bare!

A challenge this was.... I have never really thought that I'd challenge others with writing. I always did really suck and was miscomprehended. I would remember times when teachers would put the "?" mark. I would remember times when my parents would switch verses around. I remember times when I had to scratch out most my sentences and reform my words but not the ideas. This year, the choir girls (jonah, kristine, jena) corrected my paper for NHS, and there were many mistakes. So, to hear that they liked my poem, and whatever made me glad. Being the incompetent, self-centered fool(talking about myself here), you understand right? I wouldn't really say it, but I'm thankful. ^.^